finished my design exam. and like i predicted, it was too easy. i would literally shoot myself if i dont get a >90% on it.

on another note, me and my friend finally got together to watch the first episode of skins. and may i say, it was brutally amazing. freddy was hot, cook was so funny, the twins were interesting and effy like i predicted was the same old troublemaker. we had so much laughs while watching it, we basically died. after half a week of the anticipation, i was not disappointed. can’t wait for episode two now. waiting game :(

mmm. bits and bites :) though im not a big fan of the pretzels… or the cheese sticks.


I honestly didn’t think i needed to study for design tomorrow, until now that i looked over my notes.

theres acutally alot of stuff to remember, dang. bust out the study notes for the night. three hours? i think that’s enough. weeeeeeee!

crunch time.

it is a Sunday and the day has commenced. this means i have to study for my design exam tomorrow (which would be a breeze, but i figured i should study anyways), practice my piano and do my laundry that i have been saving up for the past 3 weeks. ew. thats kinda discusting now that i mention it.

oh wow.

skins 1

some say it’s an obsession, i say its love.

i don’t know what it is. there’s something about the show that makes me just can’t get enough of it. i think it’s because it is so much different from the censored teles we have here in canada. everything we have on tv here are ‘hollywood’ and if you ask me. it can get rather monotonous <– that means boring :) and i think it’s just that the characters in the show lives such an interesting life that i obviously would never be able to live (yes i know that its a show and its all fiction, but knowing that some kids do have that lifestyle is fascinating) and oh yeah it’s cause its british. and you know how much i love the brits.

the first ep of the 3rd series aired the other night, and amazingly it was up onto the web on the same night! i was so tempting to click it and watch it but it was 12 already, and i cannot afford to stay up watching skins on the night before my chem exam. so me and my friend is going to get together after exams to watch it together. though it is tempting to watch it without her. love you dezy!

oh my goodness, and did i mention that the first season is now avaliable for sale in north america now? but the only way of me getting my hands on it is through amazon. i shouldnt complain because it’s not like i could’ve gotten my hands on it before hand since the only versions out were the uk region versions where i wont be able to play here.

wow i sound like an obsessed school girl. quite sad actually.

stupid cavity.

well i had a cavity filling a few months ago, and it felt like after a fews days that it might have fell out. but i never did or said anything. so today when i was eating some walnuts, i was just munch at it then i bit something hard, i swallowed it not knowing what it was. then later i felt something sharp on my tooth. turns out the little hard thing was part of my tooth. i chipped! like its not big, but i can feel that a piece came off. i was freaking out. i showed my bro and they told me that the part that fell out was black along with the hole from the filling. now im super paranoid and thats all i can think about. hence me writing this blog. omg! i knew i should brush my teeth more. now i need to get a filling, or worse! who knows what can happen? what if they have to take out the tooth and give me a fake one. omg! okay, i need to calm down.

i hate life!


two down, two to go.

funny how i studied for hours for my math test and not as much for my chem test and it turns out that i had trouble on the math exam and not so much the chem. its also funny how math is my better subject while i dread chem. oh boy.

and i haven’t been eating meat for a week, and surprisingly, i am not hating life. veges and v8 are kinda good. sooner or later, i’m going to forget what meat taste like.

ohh im healthy. and weight room in second semester :) wooooo!

punk rock temptation

l_08382c0ebb39cf4207a780c2a3bc73c7alright, so about two years ago i had a punkrock/metal/screamo/emo music phase. i thought i almost got over that phase. like i stopped listening to half the somes (maybe over half cause i had like 2000 songs) and i only listened to the softer punk rocks, cause the hardcore stuff were giving me headaches. i thought i moved onto better things, until i came across this band the other day. it’s been over a year or two since i was obsessed over a band so here it is. FRAMING HANLEY. i swear they are one of the few punkrock bands out there that gets to me. alot of the other crap is the same stuff over and over again. maybe im being bias but i really really like this band cause they do have a different sound to them. oh yeah, nixon <3 and chris from the band is totally yummy, maybe that’s a big reason i love them hehe. i think i’m going to get their cd and let me tell you, that says alot. anywho wayyy past my bedtime, im going to have a shit job waking up tomorrow. omg! im having eggs again tomorrow morning! maybe that would make me wake up. nighty night!

a salty situation.

snowed today and it took us half an hour to shovel it all.

then when it came to salting the ground, turns out we bought wrong salt.

instead of getting road salt, we got water softener salt. how embarrassing. so now our walk way is covered with huge ‘pill’ shaped salts. omg!

shoot me now. please.


i strive for perfection way too much. i know that there is no such thing as perfection; that it is different in everyones eyes, i just try to achieve my state of ‘perfection’. i’m talking about the physical stuff. i’m not full happy with the way i am. i feel that there can always be the chance of me upgrading who i am. i look in the mirror thinking about the things that i can change. slimmer thighs, thinner arms, flatter abs, fuller breasts, nicer eyes, symmetrical face. the list goes on and on. some of these things i can achieve eg. excercise. but then there’s some that i cannot natural get. its not like i can take pills that will make my eyes better, excercises that can pump up my boobs. though there are always alternatives, but that would only make less real and natural. knowing that i articially achieving my physical wants though im not saying that i would never get them done. basically all im trying to say is that im not happy with myself. i look in the mirror and see flaws and try to find ways hide them. i know that i shouldnt get so caught up in thinking about my looks, but its hard when media these days try to tell us how to look, and i have permanently stepped into their trap. i won’t ever be truely happy until i finally see what i want to see in the mirror. it doesnt help that i have high expectations with myself either.

i know that i’m going to sound totally shallow, but i want to be the girl that guys sees at the mall and talk amongst themself and be like ‘ oh wow shes pretty cute.’ i dont know why im sharing this. ive been on the other side for so long, seeing attractive guys and complimenting on them and getting caught up in lusting on their looks. i want to be the one getting lust over for my looks, i like lusting over other guys for their looks, but i would like to balance to scale y’know.

i look at really pretty girls on the street and in the hallways and i wish i was like them. to be able to present themselves to easy cause they know they are hot, dont need to think about anything other than to look good and know that other girls are envying them.


fourty seven days till france and germany.

one hundred and sixty three days till PRIDE.

life is good.  oh wait, exams are in eight days. never mind :(

veggie blog #2
didn’t have any meat at all today, didn’t even crave it either. it’s surprisingly not that hard. but tonight’s supper was yummy, it was all seafood. didn’t really pig out, but i did fill myself up :)

sorry, i don’t have much to blog about today. night! real world is on:)