i would like to get this off my chest.
i don’t have many friends, people that know me would probably be like ‘no orange, you have tons of friends’. but to be honest i don’t. i hate admitting it, it really makes me feel like a huge loner loser. it’s just that, i hang out with alot of people, but most of them are just my peers, classmates and acquaintances. they are not the people that i would be able to tell important stuff to. there’s just not the trust i have with my besties you know.
but now that i think about it, i was such a loser when i was younger. i remember when i had little amature piczo sites and such, i would have a friends list. i would put everyone that i ‘considered’ friends on there. but in reality, i was trying to look cool by puting every i ever met or talked to on the list. oh how wrong i was.
Main Entry: friend
1 a: one attached to another by affection or esteem
2 a: one that is not hostile b: one that is of the same nation, party, or group
3: one that favors or promotes something (as a charity)
4: a favored companion
‘a favoured companion’ i guess that would be my definition of a friend. it takes alot for me to consider you a friend. even though, i may act totally open and friendly when we first meet, it actually takes alot of effort for me to do that. i’m a really shy person, and i find it super hard to even say a simple hi to strangers. but over the past year, i’ve over came my fears, i dont know what i was afraid of. when ever im walk by anyone down the streets that i dont know, i would look down or look away. that’s how bad it went, it’s getting better though.
to conclude my rant, i would like finish this by stating the old saying. quality over quantity.