being brought up the way i am, i have an attitude to avoid the initiriative to make plans with people or to even try to get to know people better. once again, it’s a antisocial thing. i grew up in a household where going out is a somewhat frowned upon thing, where we have to earn the privalege to go out. back then, before my parents understood the essentials of going out (well maybe not essential) the only time i’m aloud out is if it is for a good reason like homework. even when in the event of it happening once in a blue moon, they hawk over me and must know everything that went on with a strict curfew. 1-2 hour outtings were never fun, i was always to rushed in time. i remember back in elementary school people in my class would come to my house and ask if i can go out, i would ask my mom and she would say no, even though i completed all my homework and i’m just slugging around the house. my friends eventually caught on and began coming to my house less and less knowing what would happen. i don’t understand why some parents are so sheltered towards their children. my mom is always complaining why i’m always on the computer and watching tv, and why my vision gets worse and worse every year. i so want to say that it’s because that’s all i can do seeing as i’m not going to do what they expect me to do to read my text books, study for upcoming tests that are still unknown. they tried to occupy my time by giving me math problems and reciting the times table. i swear it’s an asian thing. well back to the point of this blog. yes my parents has loosen their grasp on me, but even with the bit of freedom they have given me, i don’t use it enough to my advantage. i’m personally not the type to make plans with people. i try but it’s just not something i do. i always feel desperateness when asking people to hang out (that are not my norm/close friends) hense the reason i hang out with the same old. not saying that it is a bad, though i do want to get out there and be able to make new friends and hang out with different people. i shelter myself towards to world because the way i was brought up, i guess my parents accomplished their job.