Resurfacing uncertainty.

You liked someone once, over time the feelings lessen. But there is no way that all the feelings can be fully diminished. There are always the chance for them to come back.

One cannot control feelings. You can try to dismiss them but they will always be there trying to wiggle to the top to expose themselves.

There has always been a feeling of uncertainty with this person. He was the only boy I liked A LOT, two years ago, but after I realized that nothing can ever happen. I just left it alone. It’s been two years, and we’re friends. I like hanging out with him. He’s funny, facetious and is a great companion. We hung out a few extra times this summer. I never thought there was anything extra about napping together (More like attempting to nap) I thought friends do that. I know I do that with one of my best friends.. But then when it came to the time where he made a move on me, and we kissed. I was really confused. After it happened, I got butterflies and we both had smiles on our faces. Was this a thing where teenage hormones reacted as two people of the opposite sex lying in bed will lead to? Or was there feelings involved? I later asked him if it was him and my friend instead being alone would that have happened. He said no.

I’m trying not to think too much of this. I’ve kissed other boys before, but this one is different. I want to figure it out, but I’m scared if what might happen. Are my feelings for him resurfacing?

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2 responses to “Resurfacing uncertainty.

  1. Hmm, I really don’t know. Best of luck anyways. And check out my blog too. I AM SERIOUSLY LOOKING FOR PEOPLE MY AGE!
    Why don’t you ask that guy out a few times? Maybe you will find out if that was just cough teenage hormones cough…Hope it works out!

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