I’ve never tried so hard to give the guys the sign that I’m interested, to try to make it obvious, to give him the green light.
How much do I have to throw myself at you? I stayed on campus till 2 in the morning to hang out with you, and ended up walking home. I complimented on you looking good in boxers. I let you spit on my face for fun (of course it was game and I got to do the same thing back) I slept in the same bed as you. I came to hang out with you basically everyday for the past 2 weeks.
Are you really not going to take the bait?
After talking to a wise someone, there has to be something wrong, I’m giving all the right sign, I’m not hiding it, I’m not leading you on. I’m straight out giving you the signals that I’m interested.
I’m not going to be the one that has to put in all the effort, if you’re not going to meet me half way. I shouldn’t put that much time and effort into it.
No I’m not upset. Mostly because I haven’t been straight up rejected, but it just feels like that without him telling me. I guess I’m kind of frustrated that it doesn’t feel like it’s working out, still I like hanging out with him. I’m not going to make the next two weeks of school awkward between us. I like being around him, his roomate and his floor. Besides, even if there was something, there is two weeks of school left and two weeks of exams after that, he also lives 5 hours away from me. It’s unrealistic. I’m sure if I’m still interested, I can make a better effort in September when I know I don’t have a deadline.
I’m getting over this as I type. Once again, he’ll always be someone that I’m going to be attracted to, through his looks, personality, talents and smarts. The timing is just not right.